Wordless Wednesday - Fish!

Things Are Good, Just Different

After being a stay at home mom for 10 years it was hard to get a job. At the time I didn't see any other choice. Monte had just gotten braces and hubby's insurance wasn't going to pay a dime. We had that new payment a month plus with Christmas right around the corner and the ever increasing gas and food prices I thought it was what I needed to do for my family.

As hard as it was, I still believe I made the right decision. It did take Carter a little while to get used to me being gone a few nights a week though, and I've never gotten used to it. My heart is, and always will be here with my boys. I've even had one of them tell me, "why can't things just go back to how they used to be?" As a mom that hurts when all I want is for things to go back too.

It's really more about the time of day I work then it is about actually being gone. Nights and weekends suck. There really isn't any other way to put it. But I have to work when hubby is home. We have no one to help us, and are on our own, but I'd rather have one of us here at all times anyway.

I started out saying I wanted to work a couple days a week. But it was Christmas, so I worked more. And it was every Saturday night and almost every Sunday for the past 5 months. Retail. What else are you going to do. That's when the hours are and everyone works them.

But then my hubby's plant got really busy and he started working a lot of overtime. And lo and behold we didn't really need my paycheck anymore. That, and baseball started with him going one way with one child while I went the other way with the other child (plus baby) and with me working every weekend we had absolutely NO family time.

Something had to change. I'd love to walk into work and say I was quitting. But what happens when I need the money again and I have no job. Plus I'd like to still make enough to pay for Monte's braces every month. Just to be sure.

So I went down to one night a week. No Sundays. My boss at first didn't seem to like the idea. She wanted to know if it was permanent. I said no, and as much as I'd like it to be, it's probably not. At the end of the night I thanked her for the "whole schedule thing" and she said, "Your welcome. Family is important". And I told her yes, for me it's everything.

The funny thing is I've never considered myself a working mom. Not working four days a week and especially not now working one. I'm still a stay at home mom in my heart. And until we can't pay our bills and there is no other choice, that's how it's staying.

How Many Eggs Can I Hold?

I just love this picture from Easter. And yes, there was a tiny bit of candy in each egg. He will be 2 in less then 2 months, this silly, funny, snuggly, sweet, ornery, crabby, stubborn, bossy (even though he can't really talk yet) little guy of mine. And I wouldn't change a single thing about him. Well, maybe the crabby part.....

Updating

It's really about time I guess. I never intended on taking a 3 month break from blogging, but things got too crazy around here and one week turned into another, into another, and before I knew it, it had been months. Blogging had to take a back seat as my family had to come first. And always will. I don't know how often I will update this thing, but I'll continue to try. For now at least.